Orange

There are many movies out there that depict the lives of suicidal people, but for me, not many of them can come close to this one. This movie has a way of making me feel more in depth and understand deeper about how life looks like for these individuals, and more importantly, how the main character of this movie, Kakeru, experienced what made him guilty enough to think about ending his own life.

This movie emphasises a lot on how friendship and support from people in a person's life can help them to put off the idea of suicide and think about continue to live and having a purpose to live. In this movie, the friendship between Naho, Kakeru, Suwa, Takako, Hagita and Azusa is very admirable and strong. Kakeru, in the hardest moments in his life, was truly blessed to have met the other five people that helped him change his life and thinking. Never have I ever watched a movie that reflects on the lives of high schoolers at such an interesting angle, and this movie truly did it.

All of the pictures above are screenshots taken by me from the movie clip.

Living Under the Shadows

It's time to stop living life based on people's expectations, for in the end, what could you be proud of to call your own when you are old? Do you not seek happiness in life after fighting through so many years of it? In this case, the end justifies the means. You wanna feel like being on top of the world when you have reached the few final days of your life; you wanna leave this world knowing you did something that you think was right for the future of this land; you want to hold your head high because life is too short to be living under the shadows of someone; be it people's expectations, people's beliefs, people's opinions of you and your life.

It's true. The world moves on without you, you are just a speck and it can all happen without you. But you do not want to leave this life of yours wasted. That's why you must fight through and live the best life out of yours, with no regrets to mourn upon in the end. Never waste your time looking at the life of others but focus on your own. Never compare. You are unique and so you must prove that you are special in your own ways.

Break Up

(of a couple) end a relationship.

A new day begins. You wake up from your awful sleep. You’re partly covered in sheets, and as you open your eyes and regain your senses, you remember that you are now single again.

You spend the rest of your day at work, doing household chores, shopping with friends or alone, or other things. Regardless of what you do, carrying out any of these things feel a bit different, as you’re single again.

Everywhere you go or look, you see him or her. Even when you’re doing something, your mind will wander off to him or her eventually. You miss the person. You wonder what they are doing or how they are doing now.

Even when you are in the company of someone, be it friends, family, or co-workers, you still think of the person. Even when your company could potentially help you to keep your mind off of the person, you wish you could just go into your room and shut yourself from the outside world just to reserve and devote some moments and time to think about him or her, even when you shouldn’t be doing that.

You wish you could be back with the person. You feel that as if your world is crumbling, and part of you is missing since the day the announcement was made. At times you just resent him or her, sometimes you think to yourself why and how did everything go wrong and things ended up like this.

You feel very lonely in this world, even when there are people around you. You feel as if no one understands you now. Your world collapses, and you make no effort to restore it, and instead you just watch it burn down to the ground and to ashes. Yet you’re still alive, but still feel lonely.

You wish you could talk to him or her, to discuss about the things between the two of you. You want to know why did it happen, you want to know if there’s any possible way of the two of you getting back together. You still couldn’t get over the break up.

That person was gone from your life. You could be covering that hole with anything right now; social life, hobbies, work and etc., but at the end of the day, you still think of the person.

When all else fails, you are alone in your room again, and you realise that you will never get the person back into your life anymore. You are now depressed and melancholic: this is one of the darkest times of your life. People might reach out to you, or they didn’t, but you think life is all over now.

Months or years have passed by, and that’s when you finally realised that life isn’t over yet. That person may be long gone, but life still goes on. You’re still alive. Now you feel as if you gotta get up on your own feet and continue to live your life.

Like they always say “Life is short”, now you gotta listen to that, don’t you? It’s not the end of the world. And now you realise that you haven’t been loving yourself as much as you should, but it’s not too late because you can still do that.

When you wake up again, you smile and think to yourself that he or she may be gone, but you and your dreams have not.

Maybe there’s no one for me in this world. Maybe I am meant to be alone. Maybe love isn’t the main objective of my life. Maybe he or she will come back to you in the future. When that happens, you will be ready.