The First Time

I love this movie. Aubrey and Dave's conversation practically speaks out for my thoughts, something that I should have done a long time ago. Damn, really need to cherish any moments to speak up.
I really like how Aubrey and Dave's thoughts can generate a new connection between them and their ideas developed so nicely and vastly till the end of the film. Relationships and personal justifications need to be enhanced from listening and analysing other people's opinions which is what this film is dedicated for - to make me ponder over relationship and personal identity issues.

Movie poster above is sourced from Britt Robertson's Official Site.

The Plight

As much as I hate to admit it, Dead Space 3: The Awakened's ending really bugged me and threw me amidst wonders and suspense. To me, the Moons are rather clueless about their future and the importance of controlling their temptation, as if invading Earth and bringing out necromorphs to eat humans CAN REALLY make them succeed in creating new "brothers" which will be with them forever. Well, the writers didn't really mention on this part. But no matter what happens, I hope Isaac and Carver are still alive and come up with ideas to stop that problem in hand.

The main focus of this article though, is to talk about the short term disagreements and dilemma that had occurred between Isaac and John Carver - one of the saddest sights to be seen in the series. In Dead Space: Liberation, the story was ended with John being acknowledged by Robert Norton that Isaac is able to translate the Marker's Language the way Damara does before she died. John met Isaac in the beginning of Dead Space 3, when he and Norton went up to Isaac's apartment to ask for Isaac's assistance in saving Ellie.

After a series of events such as the unwillingness of killing Norton and abandoning Ellie, and the fact that John was there with Isaac when they happened, till the very end John teamed up with Isaac to stop Danik from deactivating the machine that has been helping to stop Convergence, I must say the relationship between the two is getting closer, despite the quick build-up of their friendship in such a short period of time yet strengthened by such few but major events in the game. They looked out for one another, and occasionally comforted each other in memory of losing their loved ones and their fears. The close friendship between them is ought to be appreciated and be made visible such that it inspires people to really start appreciating the goodness in "strangers" towards them.

The fight between them is by far the most saddening event that can happen in the game. It was during the events in Dead Space 3: The Awakened when it happened; Isaac was mentally influenced by the Moons' intention of finding Earth and convert Earthlings to necromorphs which apparently are the "materials" to create their new brothers. And they fought, because John wanted to return to Earth and warn the people, which happens to be what Isaac is afraid of as he does not want them to let the Moons to find out the location of the Earth with Ellie being on Earth. The fought lasted for a short while and honestly I must say that I really thought they will finish each other off if time permits that to happen. And if that happens, the Moon is to be blamed.

Dangerous Paradise

".... And when Isaac was working tirelessly around the space, travelling from one place to another and working his shit out for Earth's sake, I am dreaming otherwise; I wished I could travel in space just like him. Some places in the universe are just beautiful and unique in their own ways; All I wanted is to sit down and look at the beauty of outer space, a nature's gift. And I just do not need to worry about anything. I will encourage Isaac to do the same, for he fought and worked so hard for his planet and everybody regardless of who they are. He deserves some real good rest."

- the girl who always wished for the impossible

The screenshot above is taken from a Dead Space 3 video walkthrough. Featuring the space outside a ship called Roanoke, it was where Isaac went to search for flight recorders so that he and his crew can return to Earth and make final attempts to stop the invasion of a new species. Once again, Isaac Clarke is Earth's hero, who selflessly tried to save Earth from being taken over by the Marker and its lackeys, and its habitants from being enslaved by the enemy.

Exam/Passion comes in first?

Wow oh wow. "Time flies when you least expect it to." The terrorising moments that I've been waiting for since the beginning of this year is finally here - the major exam that motivates us to fight hard, just for the sake of trying our best even though it's going to be a losing battle.

I worked hard, I must say. But the immense effort that I've put in doesn't seem to be enough to make me eligible to survive this war. I guess I'm just gonna wait till the judgement days to find out how good am I in understanding everything that are required to be understood in this semester.

Next Tuesday will be the beginning of doom for me. But even so... I am currently suffering from a dilemma of abandoning my priority for something less important for now, and one of those things is one of my part time passion - watching walkthroughs. And by watching wakthroughs, I'm talking about Dead Space 3 gaming walkthroughs. I am now more attentive towards watching walkthroughs instead of doing my revision, but I'll have time for both anyway.

Damn, I fell in love with the game ever since I watched the first video on YouTube a few days ago. I have been a fan of Dead Space stories and games, too bad that I only read the novel but not the games. But it doesn't matter, as long as I can still look for anything about it.

This time the player is called by his username HassanAlHajry. I have to thank him for taking his liberty of posting the game on YouTube for everyone who are anticipating to watch any of them, someone like me for this case. I wouldn't mind watching everything he uploaded, but that definitely takes time.

I love the music, the dialogue, the places, characters, weapons, enemies, everything featured in the game. This game strongly reminded me of Dino Crisis' first and second games. Despite the differences, I love all of them.

The photo above is taken by yours truly.

Not Going So Well

Dear blog, how's it going? And most importantly, how's life as my loyal and faithful punching bag? Lately my life's full of ups and downs, and that's bad news for you cuz you're gonna suffer more as a place for me to pour in all my anger and pain. Sorry I still need time to manage my anger. I hope you'll understand.

 

But sometimes, I really don't understand why people always behave in a rough manner towards me. I am a living soul, not much of a popular pretty bitch but, I am ALIVE. I'm born to have feelings, reactions towards people's actions on me. So how is it that I can give no fucks about it?

 

Everybody's busy treating their own desires of living, very few could care less about other people. If I know this is true (which I already have), why the hell am I still expecting so much from them? I need answers, but I couldn't. Because nobody knows why too. Some of them don't even know there's such a problem I think. So how am I supposed to move on, when the future will just be the same, serving my everyday life with the same dilemma and pressure?

Listen to me.

There was one dark lonesome night when I began to listen to Lizzy;
That one night where she triggered a new change in my life.
Perhaps it is a new form of inspiration that changes the way I will do things,
And it could be a vital piece of puzzle that might actually enhance my image-illustrated life,
Of which I have searched for, longed for so long.

She told me,
That there are so many ways to put an end to things,
Yet our thoughts and mind were disfigured by the worst,
And we have fallen,
When we could have easily rose up from problems in life, literally.

She always hope for the new, the unexpected;
Which most of us are afraid of.
We thought it is a mistake for it to be left around us,
And we often see it as a threat, something dangerous,
But yet it is something that marks the beginning of change.

It was proposed, but yet and always, it was being denied.
We dream so big, so confidently,
But those made-believe figments, which could come true only if we let them to,
Are being made as our enemies.
Our future, but a fate that will be destroyed by us, and only us.

It used to be our destiny, but we ruined it.
Lizzy told me that her case was different,
Although she never really elaborate.
I wonder if she was embarrassed,
Or she thinks that it could affect me?



The photo above was taken by yours truly.

Question of the Day

"Life is a living hell," anonymous described. The lucky ones disagreed. Then the 'pessimistic and ungrateful' one pointed out the fact that "You are not living my life. You don't understand what I've been through." Then the argument began to lengthen to a certain extend, of which could have only been concluded in one way; but a conclusion that could be of different possibilities. But the point is; to whom do you agree with? The optimistic one, or the supposedly 'ingrate'?

The thing that I assumed everyone should know is that to not be pressurised by the outcomes of life. No matter how your life turns out to be, it's all about whether you can understand life is only a Quest for all living things. You did your part in many things, so isn't that what matters? Sometimes I wonder why are people fighting so hard all the time, at the end of it they feel so useless when they failed to accomplish some things, like getting good grades in schools, or finding a truly long-life partner. This non-logical belief is driving everybody crazy, making people to adopt unnecessary or self-created feelings of insecurity and depression.

Do you ask yourself all these questions? Do you think about them? If you have been having all these thoughts, how do you understand them?